I am now officially a Certified Zentangle Teacher and I am so thrilled about it, I can barely contain myself. As always, I owe this to the love of my life, the yang to my yin…
To be brutally honest, before I signed up for the seminar, I was not the least bit sure about what I was doing. As always, I had no plans or direction and being a CZT was more of a distant dream…a someday-I’ll-do-this kind of thing. I was full of doubt because that’s who I am. I am flawed in more ways than one and with every passing day, I am learning that so is everybody else. The point is that I am impatient, fickle, indecisive, grossly under-confident, overly-emotional and …wait for it…hyper-critical of myself. No, the irony is not lost on me. And of course the doubt becomes overpowering when I have to shell out my husband’s hard-earned money and this, by no means, was a small amount.
Usually when I want something that costs money, I procrastinate (a strength in this scenario) until I no longer feel the need for it. That strategy has served me well in weeding out the wants from the needs with a 100% success rate. That’s exactly what I did in this case too. I slept on it. Long enough to give sleeping beauty a good run for her money. I slept on the idea and hoped against all odds that the temptation would pass. Instead I came to realize that my urge to attend this seminar wasn’t going anywhere. It was, on the contrary, only getting stronger. Before I knew it I was losing sleep over it. I just couldn’t make up my mind. So, I turned to the worldwide web seeking comfort but after all my research online, there wasn’t anything I could find on what to expect from the seminar. I did not want to spend the money on this vague, mystery thing that I wasn’t even sure of and had no future plans for.
But you see, my husband and I are very different people. He is the glass-always-overflowing-and-if-you-see-it-any-other-way-it-must-be-an-awesome-and-exciting-optical-illusion kind of guy. I, on the contrary, am more of a glass-already-half-empty-soon-to-be-bone-dry-so-let-me-freak-out-and-have-a-panic-attack-right-now kinda girl. So staying true to my nature, I spent months (I kid you not) trying to decide if I should sign up for the seminar or not. At long last my husband’s logical and rational arguments tamed my irrational, emotional and fear inducing self-doubt. The eternally-overflowing-glass prevailed and I found myself in Providence, RI. Goes without saying (but I am still going to say it) that I couldn’t be happier that I went. It was worth every single penny and more. It was enriching, fun, exciting, immensely informative and not to mention, exhausting. I spent 3.5 days tangling until my fingers were stiff and my vision was blurred. I met some wonderful people and we shared some great stories. It was an amazing experience and I totally L.O.V.E.D. it!!
I have been gone a while and it is because of this little fluff ball that I’ve let into my life. A pocket sized tornado that I simply can’t resist. Now I catch myself smiling for no reason at all. I don’t sigh as much as I used to either. I know I’ve missed out on many a Zentangle challenges and am not nearly as prepared as I would like to be for the upcoming CZT (Yay!!!) but it’s totally worth it. Here’s introducing the newest quadruped addition to my family, my youngest, 11 weeks old and a mere 4 pound bundle of joy…Yoda!
I recently started reading ‘Mindset’ and I have, much to my delight, discovered that when it comes to art, I have a “growth mindset”. It means that I’m super critical of my work, am willing to push my boundaries and believe that with practice I can get infinitely better. Now, I am fairly new to Zentangle. I don’t know the names of tangles. I don’t have a go to tangle. More often than not, my tiles end up looking nothing like what I’d envisioned and I have a long winding road to traverse before I get where I want to be. But that’s okay. I am learning everyday. I am enjoying the process and it keeps me engaged. That’s why I absolutely loved this week’s Diva Challenge (#308). For my tile, I picked Flux. I just happened to chance upon it during one of my mindless browsing sessions. I learned that this was one of the original tangles, and it has two versions – Rick’s and Maria’s. So, I decided to throw them in together and see how that would work. Here’s what I got…
I am fairly happy with it. I am sure there is much room for improvement though. Any feedback, tips, and/or suggestions are always appreciated. That’s the only way I know to learn and grow 🙂
I have been gone 3 years and I admit, I’d very nearly forgotten that this space existed. Anyway, I happened to stumble upon it today and thought I should get back to it. So here I am.
Skimming through my previous posts from 3 years ago, I learned that I was about to embark on an exciting parenting journey. I had started the Orange Rhino challenge. I wanted to do art projects with Ka as a way of bonding (and calming down as and when needed!). I had great big plans of turning this blog into a collection of art projects and ideas.
A lot has happened since then. Funnily enough, I discovered that she is not really into art. So that plan of mine didn’t pan out too well. I also failed miserably at the orange rhino challenge. After a few tries I gave up. And incidentally, I just took it up again a couple of weeks ago. I had Ka make me some orange rainbow loom bracelets (Yup! She’s into that big time) to serve as a reminder to not yell but I kept forgetting to wear the bracelets. Now Ka just brings them to me every morning. So now I have no excuse 🙂
I also earned a bachelor’s degree in graphic design and visual effects. Now I am a budding graphic designer and I love it! I’m still not really convinced that working for a company is the best route for me to take, so I’m working on some pet projects while learning new techniques and honing my skills. I’ll decide later whether I want to look for a job or not.
I also discovered Zentangling and fell head over heels in love with it. It’s perfect for someone like me : high strung and always on edge. I did a few tiles and a couple of meaningful compositions. After that, as always, I got distracted with other things. My tangling journal collected dust and my pens dried up. Then, I recently discovered the zentangle weekly challenges. They say it takes 10,000 hours of practice to get really good at something. That’s intimidating but I’ve dug out my journal and bought myself a new set of micron pens. I’m going to go for it. One day, one tile and one tangle at a time…
Here I am. All excited and energised. I am doing a course with https://www.coursera.org/. Creativity, Innovation and Change. I love it. 2 weeks in and I love it more than I ever imagined I would. As part of the project, I’m back to take this blog in a new exciting direction.
Ka turned 8 about ten days ago. She’s a big girl now (or so she believes). I am just going to play along although I am not particularly in love with the whole prospect of her growing up so fast. There’s so much I want to do with her but there’s such a dearth of time. Also, with every passing day, I am having to put in more effort and more thought into mothering her. She needs more freedom and there’s only so much freedom I can give her. She wants no responsibility but there’s only so much I can let her off the hook. We’ve been locking horns constantly. There’s been a perpetual power struggle playing out and I soon realised that we needed to change our ways drastically. We have to change the way we deal with each other, the way we deal with our own needs, the way we relate to each other, the way we voice our opinions, the battles we choose to fight, the way we teach ourselves to calm down and the way we choose to build our relationship. So I took the plunge and signed up for the ‘Yell Less, Love More’ challenge on The Orange Rhino. We also attended an Art Therapy workshop at Ka’s school which definitely gave us a nice little push in the right direction. Thence sprung my idea for this project. This blog will henceforth be a compilation of all the art project ideas (original, inspired and borrowed, with proper credits and links to the original sites, of course) that catch my fancy as an aid to calming down, both for Ka and me.
Here and now we embark on a whole new adventure, hand in hand, determined to find our way, open to new ways of discovering ourselves and each other, and building a beautiful relationship, one moment, one step and one art project at a time…
P.S. I will also continue to post my own creations as I have done in the past, be it something I made for myself, for Ka or for no rhyme or reason at all.